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So here I am.. back on this sight nearly 2 years later with an extra 2 stone.. Oh well.. what’s done is done!! I’m back, super motivated and ready to do this!!! Nothing can get in my way now, loving exercising… and following Paul McKenna’s book “I Can Make You Thin” which really suits me as I’ve struggled with eating disorders for the past few years, going from an extremely pure diet to a binge eating disorder. This book is all about mindfully eating what you want, but only when you are truthfully hungry (not emotionally hungry) and you must stop when you no longer feel hungry and not when you are stuffed. I really recommend this book to anyone that has tried loads of crappy diets and failed! and it’s brilliant for those who stuff their emotions down with food! If anyone else has used this book I’d love to hear about your experience I’m nearly 2 weeks into it now.. will be weighing myself for the first time since I started on Saturday.. very excited to see what good it’s doing!

it’s evertime i go home my eating habbitsare out of control like i will eat until i actually cannot move and i dont know how to stop why is it that i have no will power as soon as i get home im fine when im living away! very frustrating.. well i had 2 days of eating really badly and im really worried about the weigh in thursday now..

I’m so happy, I worked my ass off this week and it seriously paid off =D bring on the weigh in next week!

I weighed myself last week for the 1st time in ages, 3lbs heavier than the last time i weighed myself, not as bad as i expected! I’ve been really motivated all this week, my diet has been brilliant and exercise.. well iv been out running, walking, gone to a spinning class and have a toning and aerobics mixed class tonight and i’m going to go to another spinning class on thursday! Booked a 2 week holiday to santa ponsa with 4 other girls and i’ve already bought a few bikinis for it because i know im going to lose the weight!! I’ll be weighing myself thursday morning so ill update here thursday, im actually excited!!!

It’s always around this time of the year when i start thinking about REALLY getting down to business and losing weight for the summer months but why does it never happpen? This year I AM going to go bikini shopping before i go on holidays and not go shopping for swimming suits that cover my stomache! I’m single this summer and I’m going to be confident and happpy with myself and have a great summer with the girls and not be worrying about my weight!

okay so it’s been awhile since i’ve been here, basically because i didnt give a shit anymore about anything. broke up with my boyfriend and a broken heart is NOT fun. could not eat at all just felt sick. didnt exercise didnt go to college just moped around the house for a few weeks went out a few times to get completely wasted that was about it! but i think its time to cop myself on, get back to college, back to eating properly and going to the gym! So… i went to the gym yesterday did some cardio, did a really good toning class today and im going to a spinning class tomorrow then ill take a break for the weekend.. Exercise is the only thing keeping me sane now giving me something to focus on i really hope time will hurry up so much an do what it does best…. heal.

most dramatic christmas ever. so much happened! i was really bad! i mean big packets of doritos and loadsa chinese takeaways bad! id say i drand a full off licence and i was smoking like a chimney! not feeling to good and i look pretty disgusting! i cant wait to go back to college and get back into routene, not gonna step on a scales for like a month id say!

well for the last week i have drank so much alcohol, and ate so much shit! All in the one week i split with my boyfriend and my grandad passed away in front of me. I just kept crying and eating at the same time, i feel DISGUSTING!! i havnt been this low in a good while now, and well it sucks… i really dont know how to get back on track i just want to comfort eat!!

hi all… i made out a new playlist for the gym and oh my god did it make the difference! it was so motivating and i pushed myself harder than i ever do! here’s a few of the songs i listen to while doing my cardio

well i  started off with 2 sort of emotional songs to warm up and get me in the right mood:

Hands Open - Snow Patrol

The End Where I Begin - The Script

Then when I’m really getting into it:

Beat It - Michael Jackson

So What - Pink

Heart of a Champion - Nelly

Sandstorm - Darude

That’s just a few of them but they really get ya going!

Anybody have any tips on eating healthy over christmas? im sooo dreading it!

so my gym is still closed i have put on 1lb instead of losing any i had fast food last weekend and have had a few sugary cereal bars this week so im not very happy with myself! but here we go!! really going to put my mind to it now and hopefully my gym will be back open monday! had a cup of warm water with a squeeze of lemon 1st thing this morn and a banana and strawberry smoothie with pumkin seeds!